: This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too.

You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again.

It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see’s.

Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible.

You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this… I will!

I’ll be over it. Someday.

Nobody tells you what to do when your heart shatters. Nobody warns you of what to do if something as tragic as that occurs to you. I know, because I wasn’t. I didn’t even think something like this could ever happen to me.

Swithart’s life is the epitome of hell. Actually, I think I’d prefer hell.

Life seemed to have fallen on me at once, crushing me under a lifetime of pain and hurt that came too soon, too fast. 

Love bites.. sometimes it can make you feel like it’s the greatest thing in the world, it can make you feel safe, it can make you forget everything, like you could start all over again…. love can also make you feel.. out of control, scared, like it’s eating away you until there’s nothing left… love really sucks! 

I’ll get over it.

I will. 

At least, I hope.

I just want to share this awesome experience I had during AJ’s concert here in the Philippines :)

And here’s my story about my AMAZING && AWESOME experience that I wanted to share with you guys :D

So we get to the Music Museum at 6pm, but It’s too early for the 8pm show so we leave and eat our dinner first. Got back at 7:30pm, the line all the way up to the theater was just so long! We got up, up stair about 8:44pm something like that. And the show was about to start the first performer we’re Krissy and Ericka (they’re the best!). After that, finally AJ and his Band came out, he started the show singing “Heart of Worship” we’re so blessed that time that he sang to all of us. He make us sings our heart out! :) The best part of the concert is when AJ cries and look up while he sings. You know it was not just any concert when he was able to make you emotional when he himself become emotional. The emotion in his eyes, the emotion in this voice (my fave part) ….

You deserve all the scream, the shouts, the standing ovation and even all the jumping fans on stage! You made me smile, laugh, shout and so happy, I’m the happiest girl in earth! BEST CONCERT EVER ♥

The concert ends at about 12 something like that. Everyone’s waiting for the meet && greet, but I waited then we’re getting close to the tables! Krissy, Ericke and Andrew gave me a sign and then (Yaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!) AJ’s turn while he was signing, I was like “OMG! AJ please look at me” (at the back of my mind lol). Then I just said “Hey it’s Swity!” and then he was like “swity” he looked at me and stand up from his sit and gave me the longest HUG of my life. I dunno how long was that but it’s seems like the longest HUG in my whole life!!!!!!! Lmao && gave me the sweetest kiss ever. And the band (Noah, Danny and Andrew) recognizes me, I’m so happy they still know me :)

The AWESOME part is when AJ was telling everyone out there that I’m Swity her so long fans, one of the SHOWSTOPPER and the only SHOWSTOPPER here in the Philippines ♥ So much LOVE!!! I wanna scream that time. After that I almost forgot to gave my gift to AJ and I ask for a picture, I also ask Danny and Noah, I don’t get a chance to have picture with Andrew though (That was an epic fail) But overall I’m so happy && lucky to finally meet AJ RAFAEL ♥

GWAPO, I JUST WANNA SAY THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART ♥ I KNOW I CAN’T THANK YOU THIS ENOUGH, BUT THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH! I STILL CAN’T BELIEVE THAT I ALREADY MEET YOU! :))

For those who are asking YES! AJ RAFAEL do gave me tickets to watch his show last January 18, 2012 :) I know I’m so lucky ♥

BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE! ♥♥

: MISSES THE SHOWSTOPPER :)

: Been so long. I miss twittter :(

MY BESTFRIEND :) - Do you want to know what the best friend is? Best friend is someone which can make you… http://t.co/eYH3dUhA

Do you want to know what the best friend is?

Best friend is someone which can make you think positively. It is also something which can give you the real meaning of friendship. It can be something which can show you what the true happiness is. It is the special thing which makes the sadness and loneliness far away from you. It is absolutely something or someone which will always offer you with the best and be always ready to do the best for you. It is someone or something best which will always serve you all the best.

It is interesting to note that best friend always provide you the best. All the best is yours if you have best friend. This is why I have a best friend named Neil. ‘This is really my best friend’. 

Dear @ajRAFAEL, i’m excited to see you soon. #justsayin

: Freakin crazy cold weather + brown out! fml. please be safe everyone.

: She better be treatin’ you right!

RT @pensarah: #FF #SHOWSTOPPERS :)) @swity_AJRAFAEL @freakinlovearis @xFiii @AJRAGQC_love @kerstiiin_k @DinaDinosaurrr Love y’all!!

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“Swim Good” (Frank Ocean cover snippet) -JENI

Just recorded a clip of it on my voice memos. If you guys like it, I will post a video of the full song on my YT! =)

-JENI

: Resorts World Manila tomorrow! Never to old to get excited for this one. No class for us :) #whatalife

: No matter where you go, I won’t be very far coz in my head I’ll be right there where you are, coz LOVE HAS NO DISTANCE #showstoppers

: It happened again, my phone decided to be a ninja, slip through my hands && hit my nose! Ouchhh >:/